Here, takes my jacket that you might feel warmer, he said.
You pulled in yours and you said no thank you.
Here, I give my hat that protects your hairs from getting wet, he offered.
You opened up your umbrella and said let’s walk together and get safe.
Are you tired, do you need me to take your bag, he asked.
Aren’t yours heavier I could see it, you answered with the smile on your face as you touched his bag.
It’s okay we could use my card, he whispered when in the cashier.
Thank you, but please I will pay it later on, you begged him.
He was nice, you thought.
Maybe it’s just because he was nice, like—to everybody, your mind fought.
But at least he treated me like a gentle one, you still tried to argue.
Being gentle doesn’t avoid someone from being a player, your mind still could debate you.
Could you please just be quite a bit, you tried to shut your mind.
I couldn’t, I am protecting you from getting hurt, it resisted.
Why do you even hope me to get hurt, you protested.
Because I know you would, everybody knows, even your heart, it indeed answered.
I hate knowing it but at least could we enjoy the moment a bit, you argued tenderly.
Are you tired from walking in miles with me, he interrupted your crazy battlefield.
You just smiled and laughed, not even a bit, you said within your heart.
It is funny thinking that you keep things going thru the hard times.
Thru the doubts, thru the tears, thru the pain, thru your own mind conflict;
Here seeing yourself walking side by side with him.
Like nothing ever happened before. Like you have crushed the walls you have been building for many years. Like—just like that.
You want me to drive you home, he offered in doubt.
You stared at his eyes thoroughly.
Oh shut up, your heart is not a titanium, just say no, the mind told you too.
Maybe a little bit test, your heart interrupted.
Test your own self fool, your mind protested, there’s no time for that.
You’re still stoned and caught him seeing you, waiting for an answer.
Is it okay, you whispered in doubt too.
Sure, I can’t let you go home alone anyway, he answered as he smiled.
But, after one more cup and one more talk, he added.
You never expected that kind of response.
Is it okay to feel this, you asked your own self as you could not handle a little butterfly tickles your belly.
You talked and laughed and sometimes let the air took control.
You didn’t actually know where this all would lead.
Would this end in flame just for tonight?
Would there be no other hi after this time?
Would he just come crossing your lines like other persons?
Would your mind show that it’s right or—would the heart win?
You really have no idea. But as you turned your head and saw smile in his face, you thought;
It’s okay. I am afraid yet I just want to enjoy the very moment. And it’s enough.